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It’s a long one; that’s not what she said

Yesterday was an amazing day. There were a couple small glitches, but there is no possible way they cancel out how overall fantastic yesterday was.

I woke up at 7:00am, got ready for my 10:00am class. Did some of my reading for preparing for my two exams next week. Normal morning stuff. Went to my 10:00am class, Ecology. That class. Ugh. It is not one of my preferred classes to attend. But after that class, at 11:00am, is when things started to get good.

In order to drum up attention for the performances of The Vagina Monologues, there’s been a table in the Union on campus across from the Starbucks. I had signed up to table yesterday. Of course we were selling tickets for the shows. That’s expected. That’s normal. But that’s not all we were selling. Oh no. We were selling chocolate vulvas, too (though we were calling them chocolate vaginas).

If nothing else, tabling is an excellent  form of people watching. Which myself and the other girls did. So many people walk right by the tables and ignore them. Some one I knew and used to be close with walked by without a single glance at me or a wave or any form of recognition. Most people I knew, would wave or say “Hey, Rachel.”

We got a lot of weird looks too. I expected that. Just the nature of what we were tabling for demanded that to happen. One guy came up to us and asked, “You’re selling chocolate vaginas? What’s wrong with you?” I don’t think so. He should have been exploring why he felt the need to diminish the validity of women empowerment. Did he feel less secure? Did he feel his masculinity was at stake?

So, I spent my afternoon tabling. While not productive for my schoolwork, was productive for my well-being. I’m generally a quiet reserved person and I don’t get along with other people that well. I do not trust them, as a whole. I stay silent. I do not talk. But I talked with my fellow-tablers. I talked with the people who came up to the table to buy tickets or a chocolate vulva. I feel so much more confident about myself now. I stopped feeling like a woman pretending to be one of the attractive, self-assured, strong, empowered women, and actually am one now.

Also, where we were tabling across from Starbucks, the guy who was working there kept coming over and talking to us. Toward the end, he even brought over a coffee that someone ordered and never picked up. We didn’t drink it because it was burnt, but it was still a very nice gesture.

When I got home, for once, all the ladies of the house were together again. Our schedules are so different this semester, it’s hard for all of us to get together and talk like we used to. But, even though I should have been doing homework and studying, the three of us sat at the kitchen table and talked like we used to when we had time to do such things.

I studied for my History of Jazz exam from when we finished talking to when it was time to leave for call at 5:30pm. More or less. I had to get dressed and ready for the show, too.

At call, we ran over a few things. Set up the stage. Reassured each other everything was going to be great. Simple, last minute preparations. Then it was just waiting.

Last night, two of my roommates, Kayla and Little Chris, were going to watch the show. Sam couldn’t due to assistant stage managing the school’s big musical production of Avenue Q. And Whiskey Kid, yeah, I didn’t expect him to go. But Lance was also driving up from Base Camp specifically to see me and to see my perform.

Just before we left our holding room, one of the cast members said a small prayer to thank God for such a wonderful cast and opportunity and cause, and to ask him to let the performance run smoothly. She said it in such a wonderful, fluent, articulate way. It was great. So much better than when I talk to God, when I’m just like “Uh, hey, God. How’s it going?” Someday I will be able to converse with God in a way I find acceptable and suitable for me. Right now, I just feel like I’m interrupting Him while He’s doing something else important.

The performance went great. Mostly, the cast got all of the lines right. People laughed at all the right spots. People clapped. In the second and third rows, there was a group of women who absolutely loved the show. They were thoroughly enjoying themselves. I think most people there had a good time. During “The Woman Who Loved to Make Vaginas Happy,” the actress slipped in an unscripted moan to surprise the cast because we heard the monologue run and many of the other moans lost their hilarity. She added in the “Harry Potter moan,” which was a long the lines of Bloody hell! and something about the Chamber of Secrets.

After the performance I was starving because it was 9:00pm and I hadn’t eaten since 3:00pm, and only ate a salad. So, Lance took me out to Governor’s. I thought I was hilarious when I got my haddock sandwich and said “I want to taste the fish. That’s why I ordered it.” Which is a line from “My Angry Vagina.” In addition to the haddock sandwich, I had a really nice glass of white zinfandel. Lance got the Thanksgiving dinner plate. He got cottage cheese as a side. I had never tried cottage cheese because it reminds me of the one time when Daisy, the first family dog, threw up in my brother’s room at the old house. But Lance urged me to try it. It’s good!

When we got back to the house, he gave me a bouquet of flowers, a box of chocolates, and a nice card. Blender-vase had to make a return because we don’t have any normal vases at the house.

I think it’s the card that means the most to me. In the past, Lance has talked about picking out cards and how much thought he puts into them. How he will take the time to search for the right one. On the front it says: “I’ve never been the same since the day I first met you… ” So I thought it was going to be a sarcastic, smart-assy card. But it wasn’t. Inside it said:

Thank you… for coming into my life. Thank you… for all the happiness you bring to my world. Happy Valentine’s Day.

And I know he means it.

I feel bad because I haven’t gotten anything for him for Valentine’s Day yet. He decided on Thursday night that he was going to do something for me. I didn’t have time on Friday to get something together. I feel awful about it. But his birthday is coming up in two weeks, so I’m going to make sure to make up for a lack of Valentine’s Day present then. I have some general good ideas, but I feel like I need more.

I think that’s about it for yesterday. But yeah. A fantastic day by all means!

 
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Posted by on February 11, 2012 in College, relationship

 

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Simple things that make me happy (a continued list)

  • well aligned tires
  • “until one of us dies”
  • a bed with clean sheets
  • having my own lab goggles
  • flashcards
  • loose-leaf tea
  • chocolate coins
  • finding a poem that fits my mood
  • silly texts from my mother
 
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Posted by on January 24, 2012 in Happy List

 

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Simple things that make me happy (a continued list)

  • knitting
  • enjoying the books I read for classes
  • fun/nice/entertaining/deep talks with Anita
  • tea
  • lists
  • recognizing songs I played in high school in History of Jazz
  • warm fingers/toes
  • focusing on the good
  • gardening
 
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Posted by on January 22, 2012 in Happy List

 

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Simple things that make me happy (the “I’m not feeling well” list)

  • grilled cheese
  • buttered toast
  • couches
  • reclining couches
  • cozy sweaters
  • watching movies
  • the dog cozy-ing up to me
  • water
  • ginger ale
  • cranberry juice
  • self-made knit hat
  • reading
  • thinking about The Princess Bride
 
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Posted by on January 15, 2012 in Happy List

 

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Simple things that make me happy (a continued list)

  • mismatched sets of coffee mugs
  • using the same spoon for my morning coffee/tea as in my cereal
  • I named my external harddrive “Bad Wolf” (Doctor Who references for the win!)
  • bread
  • receiving mail the slow way
  • finding a good recipe
  • peanut butter toast topped with raisins
  • my mother appreciating the photos I take
  • making lists
 
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Posted by on January 9, 2012 in Happy List

 

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Simple things that make me happy (a continued list)

  • 1950′s Christmas ornaments
  • the Arabians in the across-the-street pasture at Base Camp
  • morning coffee conversations
  • finishing a piece of writing (okay, not so simple)
  • my Border Leicester, Madeleine
  • sorting and wrapping coins
  • my brother showing me silly YouTube videos
  • identifying constellations in the night sky
  • the original Oregon Trail computer game
 
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Posted by on January 5, 2012 in Happy List

 

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Simple Things That Make Me Happy (An Incomplete List)

  • When someone backs my car in a spot
  • Whole pineapples
  • Ham and apple bake
  • The look of a kitchen after you’ve just got it spotless
  • Campfire cooking
  • Used book stores
  • The feel of a freshly clipped cow
  • Having a toilet where I work
  • Puns
  • Grammar jokes
  • A new book
 
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Posted by on December 28, 2011 in Happy List, Uncategorized

 

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Movie Tonight

I’m seeing the new Harry Potter movie tonight. I can’t help but think about where I was in my life the time I saw the sixth movie.

I was happy. I was at the Northeast Youth Sheep Show. I was dating David at the time and I had no idea that he had a second girlfriend. If you want to talk about “ignorance is bliss,” that was it. I hadn’t even formally met Alex yet. Lately, I’ve been thinking that I would be better off if I had never met him.

I was spending a long weekend with Kyle, his family, and Benjamin. Even though I’ve known I loved Kyle for a long time, I flirted with Benjamin instead.

But overall, I was happy. What a contrast that is to now.

 
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Posted by on November 20, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

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Happy Moment

There is a moment in my recent past that makes me smile whenever it crosses my mind.

I’m at a small country fair, fifteen minutes away from my house. I’ve stayed the weekend at the fair with my livestock. It’s nighttime. Flanking me are two guys. On my right is my boyfriend, Alex. On my left is his best friend, Shane. My arms are around their waists. For some reason, I can’t stop smiling. We three walk out onto the midway.

This was two weekends ago and it’s just a very comforting moment. Those two are like my boys. In the sense of the lyric “the boys are back in town” and then a guitar rift floats into the air.

It makes me think of the short story “Another Perfect Catastrophe” by Brad Barkley. Except I’m not a PETA-loving activist like Lyndsey. Alex and Shane aren’t two thirty-five year old construction workers and Shane doesn’t have a logging leg. But we do have our own version of sneaking onto the golf course to look at the John Deeres.

We went out and spotlighted deer one night. The catch? We had no spotlight. Just the truck headlights and Shane barreling ass down a road, swerving toward the ditch to, at the last minute, direct the truck toward an open field. I wasn’t in a good state of mind that night, so I didn’t enjoy it then. Now I look back on it and realize, it may have been crazy, but it was fun. It was adventure. It was something to break the mold I’ve made myself into. I need more nights like that.

 
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Posted by on September 30, 2010 in Fairs

 

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In Which, Home

So, I’ve been home for the past week. I started work this past Monday. I returned to the dairy farm I worked at last summer. And last Sunday…. I FINALLY TOLD ALEX I LOVE HIM!!

We had been watching He’s Just Not That Into You and twice during the movie I felt my heart rate quicken and the nerves settle in my stomach; the feeling I always get when I want to say something important, but am slightly afraid to say. At the end of the movie, when the sweet, romantic voice-over is being said, Alex tightened his arm around my shoulders and kissed the top of my head.

Then I had to leave because both of us were tired and I still had an our long drive to go. I hadn’t brought a jacket and it had gotten chilly, so he let me borrow his. Standing outside of his house, next to my truck, I said, “I love you.” His words were a little mumbled, but he clearly replied with, “I love you too.” ♥

 
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Posted by on May 12, 2010 in relationship, Uncategorized

 

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In Which, Resolutions

Happy New Year!!!

It’s now a new decade, 2010, in addition to being a new year. So, I’m going to do the tried and true tradition of making resolutuions that will only be kept up for about the first month.

  1. Exercise: Specifically, get into better cardiovascular shape. I’d also like to start doing yoga. Yoga is good for lean muscles, instead of looking like a female body builder. I would really like to lean-out my abdominal muscles.
  2. Write More: I did very little writing in 2009, aside from writing essays and the like for classes. I’d like to do more out of class writing. Last summer, I got A Writer’s Book of Days at a Goodwill. It has writing prompts for every day of the year. It should help a lot, along with the Writer’s Digest Writer’s Kit I got for Christmas. Writing more will also entail writing more in this blog.
  3. Sort Out My Issues: The yoga might help with this; yoga is supposed to be calming too. I don’t want to have to resort of pills again, unless their vitamin or mineral supplements. I’m going to look at alternative methods that will hopefully be cheaper than pills and cheaper than the therapist. If anyone has alternative methods to handle depression and coping with bad events in one’s life, I would love to hear them.

Those are my three main resolutions for this new year!

 
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Posted by on January 1, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

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In Which, Holiday

Happy Halloween!!

 
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Posted by on October 31, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

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